Research

did some things wrong today again :((((((((

i think i cant do research in the future. i hate the feeling of being helpless & lonely. :((( if i were to do this long term, i can predict killing myself... haiz.

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where's my sup..

FYP + Planet Earth

felt SUPER blur today.

my lab colleague asked me to lunch with her. told her i'll be done at 12nn so continue doing my things. BUT i duno i too gan cheong to not wait her wait so long or wat, made the wrong antibodies, not once but TWICE!!! argh. and since antibodies dilutions are not the same. i duno whether still can reuse anot. so kept them in the -20degC freezer.. -_- and we ended up lunching at 12.20 pm...

ask me abt my expt? i dun wan to explain. but. redid and confirmed the supposedly overexpression turned out to be underexpression.. haiz. redo everything from the 3rd stage (if u recall me saying my proj has a total of 4 stages). quite pressed for time. esp when my sup wanted me to do at least a duplicate.

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i'm so chui for Planet Earth. quoting my tcher: "if u can play this by march, it'll be a miracle". she's not trying to be discouraging, but it's the truth!!!!

argh.
i hate sightreading with astigmatism!

i hate tenor and treble clefs.

i hate tremolos.

i hate playing running notes on the cello, gotta swing the bow up and down.

BUT PLANET EARTH IS SO NICEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! sigh.

i better practise everyday... (ahem. i'll try)


and i'm serious:

if you've cello friends, pls ask them to go band!!!!!
we need more cellists. (5 more -_- )

bad day

okay. 2 experiments today.

1st expt: fumbled and put wrong things. den tried to salvage by pipetting out and prays that nothing happens.

2nd expt: confirmed with a confirm-will-have antibody. no protein. thus, concludes my past 1 week has been wasted on Western blotting and all the repeated washing and exposing. bleahh.

analysed results. duno why my transfection is supposed to cause overexpression but instead it shows underexpression. so what to do now? my sup is away. i'm so helpless. and she doesn't reply her emails in time.

was in lab alone. the dark room is quite scary. duno what i'll see when i switch on the lights.

i wan to go to some chilling-out sessions. and i feel like eating TCC's chicken pie.

finally 任命 to the failed experiments and went home. the 1st bus i saw passing me, i noe is 198, cos it has been a bad day. :(((((((((((((

okiez i wanted to do some work at home for my FYP. wanted to write some parts of my paper so that i can make up for the lost time (due to failed expts). den din realised my waterbottle cover was not screwed on and i liften the bottle with the cover. den..... water flooded the table and myself... heng it's not hot water. and my laptop din really kena alot...

ehhhhhhhhhhhhh i'm so sad can. oh ya, and i was coughing out my lungs the whole day.

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anw i wanted to recall the LASIK experience (aka enhancement surgery):

1. i went into a changing room where a lady helped me put on the operation robe.
2. she removed my glasses and cleaned the surroundings of my eyes with iodine.
3. then she put on some eyedrops. (anasthetics i think)
4. then i was ushered onto the "bed" under the "lasik machine"
5. my doctor was there, telling me that he has programmed everything into the machine
6. next he covered my left eye with a shield and did my right eye first.
7. he told me to focus on the green light which will turn red.
8. eyedrops
9. some clamp to clamp my eyelids
10. more eyesdrops and swabbing
11. a circular thing came and he said it's the most uncomfortable part.
12. then he said "suction ready?"
13. a reply "suction on." i felt pressure on my eyes
14. and it was a short pain.
15. i saw the flab opening. then i cant see anything
16. i duno wat happen next but i can see again. then, the laser came and i was told that it's the most important part of the surgery and I MUST focus on the red light. the red light became like an angry ball of fire and there was a slight burning smell.
17. i heard "50%.... 60%... 70%... 80%... 90%... 100%..."
18. flab was closed back
19. more eye drops.
20. next eye.

wah i tink technology is very advanced. to be able to program for my case and then do the laser within seconds. i think my doctor is not bad :)

Lab day on Haji

felt like an octopus today. running 4 experiments at a go, eating late lunch at 3.30 due to lack of "half-time break" Haji was spent in lab from 9am to 5.30pm. bleahhh

i'm quite crazy to squeeze all these in. esp when i'm sick and still recovering from Lasik.

i'm still having double vision!!! haha but tink it'll go away in around 1 week.

Bow hold

Went for lessons at Elizabeth's house today. I think I'll give up on the Curtis teacher liaoz. haha.

anyway, i've to change bow hold. need to change in order to maximise the volume i can produce on my cello. it's sth like change embrochure for brass playing. so it'll take around 2-3 months. i think.

so practices at home will be quite sian, playing repeated notes and long notes. but still quite necessary ba.

when elizabeth looked at Planet Earth, she said "you really wan to play ah?"

oops....

Grrr

i really hate my sister when she's being mean...

so angry i cried. and then felt stupid i actually cried cos of her being so mean. i shd have remained cool and bo hiu her.. den she'll realise that she's being crazy...

sorry i juz wan to blog. shutting myself in the room.

Dec Timetable

Seems like writing schedule is the in thing now. haha. This is my tentative December calendar. still have things to add like after 24Dec. dun think i'll go for the whole of band camp. :(

but i still wan to have fun! pls jio me out. haha!

PreLasik Assessment

Ended lab at 3.35pm, appt was supposed to be at 4pm. saw the Biopolis-NUH shuttlebus zoom past me, saw Bus 95 zoom past me. so.. i took 198 and WALK from AYE bus stop to NUH Kent Ridge Wing. haha. Reached LASIK centre at 4.04pm. think my calf muscles upped one level. haha!

the assessment was quite tiring for the eyes. for one of the test i've to push up the lids of my eyes and keep staring, and i'm not allowed to blink. then FLASHES of lights come up and blind me. 1st instinct is to blink ma. den cos of my instinct, I had to repeat the test alot of times cos she cant get a good image. keep tearing. sobzzz. and i was told that i have lazy eye and that my left eye was the dominant eye. actually i sort of noe this liaoz, and i've always have problem looking through the microscope due to the different alignment of the eyes. so today i learnt that this is called lazy eye aka Amblyopia.

the test was about 1 hour, including a video which educates patients about the LASIK procedure.

my doctor is Dr Lennard Theann who explains the different types of refractive surgery. and telling me that since i've thick enough cornea, i'm able to do LASIK, but may have risk of undercorrection.

read through the materials the person gave me le, quite nervous about it. but think that day i'll be even more anxious. garrrrrrrrrrrr....

Projek Cameron

hehe before the trip, i was having a SUPER hectic day. actually scheduled cello lesson b4 gg off but it was cancelled due to tcher's MC, so it was a blessing in disguise. had lab from 9am to 7pm. reached home at 7.30. bathe/ate dinner/finish packing and reached MRT station at 8.45pm. then went to catch the coach at Golden Mile Tower.

it was a winding road. luckily cheryl brought prochlorperazine for anti-emetics and it gave me quite a good rest too! haha. (though i was awakened quite soon after dozing off)

then there's a tour agent who told us about some packages. in the end, we signed up for the trekking package, the country-side tour and with the Leisure tour which was already in when we signed up at the SG side.

a brief summary of wat we did:
talking and looking at the mist coming out of the mouth
trekked up 2 mountains (i think i dun like trekking. haha. the thighs damn tired)
ate nice food like zhi cha and steam boat at half of SG price
buy strawberries/cherry tomato/gifts
visit tea plantations, rose centre, honey bee farm, strawberry farm
trying to catch sunrise
自拍 (that is for LC and cheryl. i'm really qt bad at it :P )
take pictures of nice sceneries

quite a "nature tour". and we all recall Prof Ho's saying "if you dun have Nature, u've no future". HAHAHA. ermz that quote was actually refering to Nature, the journal with high impact factor. but, funny to imitate his Hongkee's accent. :P

listened to iPod during the long coach rides and it was only then when i really listened to the lyrics of some songs. i normally dun listen to the lyrics. find most of them interesting. maybe it's how ppl can identify with the lyrics, that make them like songs. (for me it's usually the opposite, i mean i listen and like the melody first) okiez, that's damn random

journey back was not as smooth. some delays along the way.

anyway, thanks pharmers!

Trekking: Mountains Jasar (1670m) and Perdah (1551m) in just 1 morning!

Looking at Peda from Jasar

feeling bored and acting cute :P

A nice flower shot from Rose Centre

Steamboat on 2nd night!

Failed attempt in capturing the sunrise
(3rd morning)

Zhi Cha on 1st day (dinner)

Last 自拍 of the trip.

anw, my parents say the strawberries i bought are tasteless. so i made "strawberry milkshake"! haha. this is strawberry + yakult + milk + ice.

NICE~!

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Mugging.... IS OVER~! for now. hehe

Some pictures of mugging some weeks back hehe.

In CFA

The cookie monster at NYDC (we actually wanted to go VIVO one but we lazy, ended up at Holland V hehe )

And today 4 Dec marks the end of my Sem 7 exams. tho LC and cheryl ended theirs on Fri.
went to eat with pharm clique at Waraku at Marina. The 正宗 one.

My normal Ice Lemon Tea in a frozen glass with ice locked in their position. think cos they store their EMPTY glasses in the freezer.

Hua and cheryl shared the paper steamboat thingy.

My cheese curry udon. not bad. the prawns are crunchy!!!

LC's cheese potato with mentai ( i tink it's salmon)

anw, this sem, I mugged with LC and Tuba section. thanks for all the support thru'out the torturous period! hehe.

and thanks to the cleaners in Sci lib. esp the old friendly looking grandma figure cleaner. quite nice having her around :P though i dun tok to her, but somehow she just reminds me of a nice granny.

thanks sci canteen for serving dinners and Megabites for opening on Saturdays. thanks to the 慈祥 uncle at noodle stall.

thanks co-op for selling Uniball Jetstream. the best exam pen. though now is abit chui already.

thanks to the library staff.

thanks to my lecturers who set the papers. though i'm quite frustrated at some questions which practically test us on MEMORY and how well we memorise the notes. this shdn't be the way to learn.. grrr. haha but it's over. bleahhh

Edited: and also thanks Rongchen for the Spinellis!!!

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cello lesson got cancelled cos the teacher is on MC. and i think it's a "he". I abit sianz. i'm too used to Ivy liaoz. haha. i hope this wun be a sign for another cannot-find-cello-tcher episode.

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a funny thing from sharon's blog

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i'm gg to lab tmr to do Western Blot!!! oh yay! HAHAHA hiphiphurray!!!
and then after that, i'll leave for Cameron.

so it means
i'll be away from 5 Dec night to 8 Dec night.
Dun Miss Me.
i'll still be contactable cos applied for roaming.

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heard some news abt some cheating thingy. puzzled why she is doing it again, ruining her future. Man (i.e. human beings) are hard to understand. (quoting from cheryl)