Lousy playing

was so sleepy the whole day, when i initially took up the double bass to practise, i wanted to go home and sleep. haha...

den i wanted to join the tuba section during sectionals (since i missed playing with the section), however, i realised what i wanted to practise was different from what they were doing. did some "warm-ups" and "tonguing exercises" with them.. -_- argh. then when we played Einzugsgalope and 76 trombones. during 76 trombones, i blanked out at parts which i had practised so much last few weeks. i thought i shd stop wasting time blanking out, and went outside to practise. conference room was occupied. was outside, with many NUSSO ppl taking a break from their practice. i was being too sensitive or what, but i felt like i'm being scrutinised when i was practising. after i checked that the conference room was empty, i moved my things inside (again) and practised inside. feeling quite lousy. really. how many weeks of work but it always starts with unfamiliar notes staring at me. and i was constantly mixing up with cello fingering at the start of every session. i'm beginning to wonder whether the switch of instrument was a right move.

and it's very disturbing to see less than half the band turns up for sectionals. so what if last week, after yokes' nagging, more ppl turned up for sectionals to practise? it din work this week again. everybody seems to put more effort in the "fun" part of the italy trip. but are we going to just go dere, show our face, and play some crap? eeeks. it feels weird that for something lidat, u dun see everybody (or not even the majority) of the band trying harder, putting in more effort. i heard that songs for band of festival are difficult, but why do i only see the same few ppl practising?

i was telling yokes that if the band sounds bad tmr, it's going to be my turn to nag on email liaoz haha. ppl seems to be taking LT's magical formula for granted.